let’s talk | changes

Death_to_stock_above_10there’s been a lot happening on my end these past couple of months. between my classes ending in july and now, I feel like there hasn’t really been time to process it all, until now that I’m on vacation. I feel like I’ve just stored a whole bunch of events inside and it’s only now that I can go back and really take stock of how they’ve affected me.

first things first: getting accepted into nursing school. I was really pleased when I got the letter, and I’m really proud of the work I did to get here…but I was so exhausted from the intense school/work load that I didn’t really get worked up over it. it was a little surreal. I am definitely thrilled to be starting in october, but it’s only now that I’m really reveling in it. I had to recharge my batteries before I could get worked up about going into high gear again.

I’ve been also feeling like so many things are changing all around. I don’t know how or when it happened, but I feel like I blinked, and in a split second, I went from being a post-college-20-something to a I’m-out-in-the-real-world-almost 30-something. I’m thinking about having children and buying a home and embarking on a career. I’ve always dreamed about doing and having those things when I was younger, but now I think of them in terms of 5-10 year plans, as opposed to a nebulous “someday”.

the other day, I realized out of the blue that my parents were getting older. I’ve taken to doing more yard work and helping them with house repairs and the like because I noticed that they tired much quicker than I had ever noticed before. even when I was in college, I never once thought about my parents aging. and now, I realize that time really has passed and my parents are now solidly approaching retirement. it just puts a lot of things in perspective.

I’m not immune to time passing either. I’m not as flexible as I used to be, there are little nagging twinges and aches every now and then. I can’t stay up as late as I used to, and when I do pull the occasional all-nighter, I don’t bounce back like before. I was never a big party girl to begin with, but now I’m loathe to do anything on a friday night other than getting into some comfy pjs and just chilling.

that’s a lot of philosophizing, huh? if you’ve made it this far, thanks for following my rambling thoughts. I’m off to grab some fried clams in essex.

have a great wednesday!

image: death to the stock photo

One thought on “let’s talk | changes

  1. fivezero

    Congrats on getting into nursing school! :D That is a huge deal!

    And yeah, I can completely empathize with a lot of the feelings you’re having, especially with your parents aging. I think that hit me around 30, and it’s sobering. I really make more of an effort now to spend time with them. Time is always shorter than we think, gotta make the best of it all.

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